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Dust

Posted on February 27, 2022 Leave a Comment

“We can’t always assume the broken pieces of our life circumstances are terrible and pointless – not with our God.” Lysa Terkeurst Seeing Beautiful Again (23) This was in the devotional I read this morning by Lysa Terkeurst. She goes on to talk about dust and the pottery process and how something new can be […]

When what they said is not what they meant

Posted on January 16, 2022 Leave a Comment

Recently, a friend and I were staying in a hotel. Upon check in we were told we would get a $35 credit each day for good because of some part of the hotel being under construction. However upon checkout we were told, “Oh, no, that’s just for breakfast. . .” But that’s not what you […]

Defining Convictions/Beliefs

Posted on January 12, 2022 2 Comments

I use the word “conviction” because it sounds so much more non-negotiable than the word “belief”. I didn’t even realize I had convictions until a big one was staring me down. And, it took a really long time for me to clearly define this conviction. It was:

Waiting = Patience

Posted on January 5, 2022 2 Comments

Do you have to wait to build a life you love? Today I went to the Van Gogh Emerson Experience with my fellow Champagne Sunday girl. During our many conversations over this adventure the subject of WAITING became a prevalant theme – specifically, waiting for a big change you know is on the horizon but […]

Lovely Church Bells

Posted on January 3, 2022 Leave a Comment

I love Sundays. In my sweet little downtown home I am surrounded by churches. An Episcopal church a couple of blocks one way, a Presbyterian church a block or two another way, and a Methodist church a short walk away as well. I was raised in the Baptist church and the Methodist church growing up […]

The Christmas I gave up on love OR the Hallmark Man Prayer

Posted on November 28, 2021 Leave a Comment

This is something I think some of us struggle with after the ending of a toxic relationship. It is glorious though, to know I will be happy alone, or not, but that I don’t need anyone else to make happy happen. . . I embraced the vulnerability that allowing the possibility of love to enter my life again would bring. I also trusted the Lord to deliver what he felt was best for me and I trusted that he would, in fact, deliver. (I also trusted he would take my list into considerations, lol.) This prayer marks the first time I was able to trust in Him fully for years. I prayed and I TRUSTED. This was significant.

She would have been 107 this month

Posted on November 13, 2021 Leave a Comment

My grandmother, Mama, lived to be 105. She passed away the January before Covid hit and thankfully didn’t have to deal with any of that. It is funny, we all worried about her health all the time and she never really seemed to. She didn’t really consider death, from what I could tell, even after she passed the century mark. She was up for whatever God’s will happened to be for her. I know 105 is old, but I still feel like I lost her too soon.

The MOST lovely couple

Posted on November 11, 2021 Leave a Comment

I spent the majority of my Fall Break in Cancun relaxing with friends, finding my center, appreciating the life God has gifted me. While there, enjoying pool time, God sent to me the most beautiful and faithful woman. She was on her honeymoon and their love story absolutely renews my faith in God and my […]

Travel feeds my soul

Posted on October 4, 2021 2 Comments

I have not always loved to travel. It wasn’t that I disliked it, I just hadn’t been anywhere and didn’t know. But once I’d been on my first international trip I was hooked. I want to go everywhere. Today I am traveling to spend time with friends in a far off place that requires a […]

Work in progress. . .

Posted on September 30, 2021 Leave a Comment

I love this stage of a painting. It has good bones. It has made it past the ugly phase. It is waiting on those final tiny choices that will make it into something magnificinet. Something I am truly proud of. I feel that way about me, about my life. I have good bones, I have […]

Silly Songs . . .

Posted on September 14, 2021 Leave a Comment

Life has taken unexpected twists and turns since I spent my days innocently singing along with Bob and Larry. I think of the woman I was and wonder, if I could travel back to her and tell her anything, would I? Would I tell her to brace for what was to come? Would she even believe me?

Champagne Sundays

Posted on August 27, 2021 Leave a Comment

Weekly check ins. This is what Champagne Sundays are all about. I have become wonderful friends with my next door neighbor and each Sunday we get together on the front porch and have champagne from my vintage champagne glasses and discuss the week we’ve had and the one coming up. We celebrate our wins and […]

Living in the moment

Posted on August 11, 2021 1 Comment

Being present as a person who loves to plan her future is, well, sometimes a bit tedious. My head is always trying to look ahead and skip the uncomfortable parts. BUT, what I am finding is that when I cannot see a future, I am more engaged in my present.

Live like a college graduate

Posted on August 4, 2021 Leave a Comment

I am thankful for my Lifetime moments as much as my Hallmark moments. I am thankful to just feel again, all of the feels, to have been broken open and set free to experience life once again. Every day is a day for a new beginning or to pick up an old beginning again. I only have this ONE life. That is it! I want to live it body and soul.

How do I look at such a toxic and traumatic time through a lens of love, and why would I want to??

Posted on June 22, 2021 Leave a Comment

I was scrolling through TikTok last night, watching the many videos on trauma, toxic relationships, and narcissism that tend to be on my “for me” page, and I recognized myself in literally almost every post. I understand the trauma, I have lived in the toxicity, I have labeled my ex as a narcissist without any […]

If it was toxic for me, it was toxic for him

Posted on June 11, 2021 Leave a Comment

But what I could not see due to the bubble I had crawled into to try to protect myself, was that if I was in a toxic relationship, SO WAS HE. He was not choosing to live in a toxic place on purpose. Who would do that? He was miserable too. No one actually wants to live that way. This is powerful now, in looking back. It strips away the animosity I have felt about this period of my life.

My closet is my happy place. . .

Posted on May 16, 2021 Leave a Comment

It was like the closet was a symbol of my life if it were put together, neat and tidy.

Wait. What?? What do you mean I am not in control?

Posted on May 3, 2021 Leave a Comment

My ultimate goal when I woke up every day was to see my life and my people through a love paradigm. This is still my goal. How could I have regret if I loved my way through the difficult times instead of allowing bitterness to reign?

You are sooooo mental (said in my best Valley Girl voice)

Posted on April 23, 2021 Leave a Comment

Shouldn’t the person we choose to spend our lives so intimately with be chosen, at the very least, with the same standards we use to choose our friends?

Fatal Optimism (I made that up)

Posted on April 16, 2021 1 Comment

I allowed myself the possibility that happiness could be realized in the paths I had once been so dead set against instead of the one I was so dead set ON. I conceded that I was not giving up on the commitment I made in my marriage, I had lived it out. When I chose to move in a direction that was healthier for me the world opened and welcomed me back (and delivered transformative surprises too!)